时间，依然的，高速的奔跑着。

追得上吗？还不懂。

之前，说要离开，要离开，种种的不舍和感伤，

现在，在这里，一个多月了。

习惯吗？还好。

喜欢吗？喜欢，但还不是爱。

是长大了？还是思想变了？

一直，很想迅速成熟，

待人处世，有进步了？

是吧。

很多事，看不过眼的，不喜欢的，不满意的，

都不再重要，看了，听了，过了，就算。

也真的，渐渐做到了。

是要高兴吧。

常笑的我，是比较被人喜爱吧。

我一直有，提醒自己，不要邹眉，

笑一笑，微笑也好，让自己心境开心一些。

一个人，

学会了，朋友，永远重要。

分开了，才知道，心中的位置，

谈开了，才发现，情永远不变。

以往的斤斤计较，我好幼稚。

一个人，

知道了，父母的辛苦，他们的爱，一直都在。

洗衣，煮饭，洗碗，买菜，

这些，以前的我，都依靠他们。

现在，学到了，一个人，要好好生活，

在外面，最关心你的，是自己。

健康，一定要顾好，

因为，不能让他们担心，

学业，一定要维持，

所以，不能爱玩。

家人，在心中，一直是第一。

二十岁了，

要有二十岁的模样。

自己为自己，

承担，说的话，做的事。

加油吧，

学习，一直学习。

机会来了，就要把握。

加油！

my goal in HK.

feel a wee bit of gloomy today.

those who know me,

my friends,

you know, i am a kind of, don't like being controlled by others.

and even hate, you question my acts, some more, point that i am doing wrong.

i understand, everyone is unique. live with his/her own comfort zone, with own patterns.

so, why cant you accept da difference and start to appreciate it?

and please, i dont like words with hidden meaning.

this is da 1st time, i heard something, directly.

with hidden meaning, obviously pointing towards me.

you may deny that, i am over sensitive, it is nt about me.

ok, i am really okay.

i love challenges, cuz i want to grow, grow in a fast pace.

as i always feel that, i am still immature enough.

so, i appreciate all these opportunities,

which offer me a space of growing.

i wish to return home,

as a mentally matured and well-grown gal,

i hope to show my parents,

i had grown,

not da forever dependent daughter, who make them worry all da time.

come, all da challenges, i want to conquer all of you!!!

HAPPY MOONCAKE FESTIVAL! =)

yesterday was MID-AUTUMN FESTIVAL,

da 1st celebration i celebrated outside from home..

when it striked da night,

i feel it,

da feeling of loneliness, though you are already with a bunch of friends..

yea, i know exactly,

it is, i miss home, i miss my family.

fortunately to have some skype chat with them,

or else, it will turn worse,

and credit to my dear MALAYSIA friends here..

celebrating with them at HUNGHOM PORT,

enjoying da chilling and cozy sea wind blowing against you,

admiring night view of HK, CENTRAL is calming,

lighting up da lanterns, just a simple satisfaction,

sharing mooncakes with assorted flavors..

thank you for my friends here, with your presence, life here is much easier, cause i know, there is still a place, where i belong to, a place where offer da feeling of my originate country.

=)

today is a public holiday here.

i am going to buy my camera, at last.

i had decided, to spend it using my own money,

though my money is in MALAYSIA bank,

have a thought, never ask for money from family in these three years,

my goal!

here is da one =)

it is nt that fun,

when you are alone in a strange country.

whenever you walking by yourself, staying in room alone, eating with yourself..

all these, make you, think of your loneliness..

you can hardly feel your existence,

in a crowd of people,

who you do not understand their culture, who you don't share da same background with, who you hardly find any similar topic to talk with..

I used to pretend, I understand their thoughts, I can mix well with them..

but I don't know how to express,

da feeling of, you are seemingly no difference with anyone,

cause you possess black hair, yellow skin, speaking da common language..

but deepest in da heart, you are odd.

you are so often, taken as da one either local or mainland..

you lose your identity.

and you identity, make them feel weird, more to curious..

they have no idea,about how your country is,

why you speak da same language as them,

but you find hard to understand their meaning..

no matter how,

you can never judge a person by his/her originate place..

HONG KIES may have some not-so-good review from public,

but fortunately, I did meet some, who are nice, caring, friendly..

I will ignore those who show me cold faces, you are not worth..

do bear with my nagging/complains,

I am indeed da kind of gal,

make myself relieve through this place..

but never dare to tell my real feeling to people around me, especially my family..

I did chat with them nearly everyday,

I miss them very much, till now, it is still,

whenever I think of them, I fail to control my tears..

but I believe, it is normal, do I?

thank you for da one, who think I am strong,

I hope, I am strong too,

I want to be strong..

to live a better life here..

I don't want anyone to worry about me,

physically and mentally,

I am learning, trained, to stay strong..

and I really don't want to have any competency,

I just want to do my best,

not to compete to anyone..

you may deny my determination,

you may not with agree my words,

you may abhor my response,

but don't bother me, k?

sometime, you are a wee bit of, disturbing.

你要勇敢一点 =)

‘我不喜欢呆在别人的国家，每天逼自己接受自己不喜欢的东西，面对复杂的人和物，每天毫无目的的啃书’
亲爱的，我明白了。

random thoughts

I am still so uncertain,
da one who always not in situation,
my speed, cannot reach theirs.
I got lost, so often.
da poor sense of direction,
take its place as usual.

human relationship,
is unique, is fun, is unpredictable.
glad to be given da opportunity,
to know da inner thoughts of human,
to explore, da furthest my ability can reach.

university student,
I totally not adapted to it.
how fortunate I was once,
when teachers did every note, show da textbook needed,
and there is always, your classmates,
trusty, willing to share, not selfish,
together, we are to guide , to fail da worse situation, to gain da experience, to achieve da happiness.

when you feel yourself,
is da only one,
in da class,
da odd one out,
da one who never share da same culture and background,
da feeling, always, beyond words.

but still, da luckiest part,
I told myself,
you must maintain da faith in you,
you can conquer, whatever going against you currently,
so, give me da strength, and tell me,
I can do it.



努力了，尽力了，
做不好，也不后悔。
加油吧，
生活变了，你可以不变。

1st post in Hk

Finally, it has been a week I stay in this new land, HONG KONG.

from the 1st step I put onto this land, there are five 'uniqueness' that I found them interesting.

1st of all, I see all Chinese faces in da airport. That is quite rare in MAS as most of da airport staff in MAS are non-Chinese.

Secondly, a fact that can never be denied, HONG KONG ppl can walk indeed fast. Their speed is higher than you can expect, and initially, I was always worrying that I am blocking da walk way with my rather slow footsteps. Fortunately, after a few days of adaption, I speed up too, from a walking distance of 30 mins at 1st to 15 mins now, when I walk from student hall to university.

Da third one is da reason to explain why HONG KONG ppl walk fast, which is, everything here is waking, walking and walking. Wherever you go, you walk, take MTR, walk, change station, walk and walk, and finally reach your destination, so yea.

ok, da forth one is you can rarely find cars on da road, except public transports. da most nmber is cab, followed by different kinds of buses.

And da last incident is, weather here is extreme and alter fast. rain comes for about 15 mins, stop and become sunny again. This is kind of weird.

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Okay, let's talk about my life.
University is now so far so good.
building, facilities, food are all impressive and convenient.
and these few days, I walked around with friends, went some places, and bought a number of stuff.
stuff here are relatively cheap, namely electrical appliances, daily necessities, and clothes especially.
so, I am adapting well in time being,
lessons commence on 1st of Sept, hopefully everything goes smoothly.


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I miss my family, I miss my boy, I miss my friends.
I need to hold my tears, when I skype with my parents..
it is like, I can be teary at anytime, especially when I am walking,
da streets and places, where my mum and I went when she was still with me here da very 1st three days.

I didnt have a long chat with my boy since i came here.
he is busy, juggling his time between his competition and exam preparation.
but I did not blame for anything, cause, I know, da life he in, is tougher than mine,
we are striving life hardly, complete task to da perfect extent, and look forward for da day we meet each other.

I love you all.

am going to leave in few hours time..
have totally no idea why,
I am unexpectedly calm.CALM.
and I am indeed freak of, answering people call, listening to their talk,
they make my tears spilts like shit..

anyway, will be back soon, to my blog,
when I land safely in another land..

once again, so much grateful and appreciation,
to all da sms text or facebook wall message..
muacks! =)