哭過就真的好了嗎？

不喜歡懷疑什麼　並不表示我沒有感受
看你微妙的變化　慢慢不同
我不是生氣　　只是心痛
最討厭被誤會了　但越解釋越覺得難過
你可以説人會變　但不能説　你會這麼做是我的錯

哭過就好了　傷都會好的
這樣相信所以深呼吸著割捨
愛是為了擁抱　　為了牽手
不是為了爭吵　　為了調頭

記憶有限　　　所以它會淘汰壞的
失眠聽歌　　　想念雖然苦澀
還是謝謝你讓我長大了

哭過就真的好了嗎？

夢

晏說，当你不喜欢一个人的时候，他做什么事情在你眼中，都是那么刺眼。
賢講，我們擁有最棒的中學生涯。
學姐說，是无论何人何事，都要尽量开心，不要委屈自己，做好自己。

最近，失去了原來的自己。
不想不開心，所以儘量配合身邊的人，
不想聽到他們的冷言冷語，所以做了另一個我。

漸漸，心累了，身體也累了。
獨自的時間，放任自己，
刻意的，無意的，忽略功課。

完全忘了，我為什麼來香港，
之前做這個選擇，是抱著怎樣的夢想。
口口聲聲說，我要一個不平凡的大學，
THE ROAD NOT TAKEN,
是那時的抱負。
自豪的，得意的，覺得這是個對的選擇。
來到這裡，一個多學期，
把這些，全部忘了。

是誰，有好大的夢想，
跟他說，我要進PFIZER，我要在藥廠，我要做藥劑。
是誰，笨笨的，不懂天高地厚，
跟他說，我要做女強人，我一定會成功。

現在，連爲什麽要讀書，都不清楚了。
不是為知識，只是為考試。

夢，還有嗎？
心底的它說，還有。
但是，
外面的它，懷疑著，
你能做到嗎？

夢，要追，
讓夢想實現，不簡單，
單嘴巴講，沒用。

好像找回，
那個笨笨的自己，
那個不理三七二十一，
不理別人怎麼看，怎麼講，
只抱著自己的夢的那個女孩。

tonight,
need a tight hug,
need a shoulder to cry on,
need someone to tell me,
everything will be alright after all.

my favourite post fr my old blog :)

WHEN FRIENDS CHANGE. WHEN I CHANGE.

do you have a friend who is changing, and it's got you feeling blue?
before you get too down and start to questioning what's happening, consider this :

EVERYTHING IS CONSTANTLY CHANGING
leaves fall from tree and grow back again,
weather storms come and go,
hair keep growing no matter how many times it's cut,
da ocean tide goes in and out...

it is just a part of nature.
anything can spur change in a friend.

after all.
knowing that change is normal and doesn't necessarily have to be bad.
unless she is changing for da worst and you are concerned about her well being, give her da space she needs to explore these new interests.
take care of yourself and acknowledge that you are changing even as you feel that.
everything we learn, take in and process changes who we are and how we view da world.

accept da changes

in everyone

noone wanting to be da background

to be forgotten, neglected

noone wanting to put up with emotional words

to stand hatred face, perfunctory response

-

have been guilty

of giving too much power to someone

and then

feeling helpless and unable to get it back

-

we feel da situation

but why do we let her control da way we are acting and thinking

because

we give our power to people we think they are charismatic

one smile from them can easily make us feel like a million bucks

so we do whatever it takes

to keep those smiles coming

=)

is it too slow

to realise

all da falls AND falsehoods

sorry does not exist

it is merely

da matter of

learning to love and to be loved

what a day!

with no reason, feel gloomy since i wake up.

annoyed by da loud banging of room door in da early morning.

why cant just shut da door properly instead banging it hard, for a few times.

idiotic people!

hit da day with 5 hours lecture continuously,

get stuck!

totally tired of kiasu people,

discussing non stop for one single doubt in notes, yet insisting her own point of view, ignore explanation from others.

hello, then what for you ask.

i am lazy to entertain you.

and i dont know why you all show me a weird expression when i said i am heading to library or holding an unfamiliar textbook in front of you.

lending text book/reading one more text book doesn't mean i will get much smarter than you lar, kay?

stay calm.

come back to hall,

start cleaning up my room,

whenever i feel upset, i will clean my room,

it is like clearing all da unhappiness sticked in my heart.

very useful, i am feeling much better now!

我好想回家！！！

看著家裡帶來的東西，

更想家！=（

我不喜歡一個人留在這裡

今晚吃雞粥，想起阿公。

香港的雞，沒有雞味!

每次不開心，就會和自己說，

撐下去，多撐一下，就可以回家了。

還有十一個星期，

十一個罷了，

很快就過！！！

老弟

加油

生活不容易

可以放下的

就放下

不要太在意

把打擊你的話

化為動力

變成證明

不認同的事情

聽了就算吧

很難做到

但是要逼自己做到

加油

記得，家，永遠是最好的

不管怎樣

他都是你最親的人

不開心

就找我啦 :)

da freezing wind reminds me that I am back to this hustle and bustle land.

1st lecture is enough to freak me off.

org chem lab which requires tonnes of preparation work, a quiz on next week, one assignment to be completed after every bioprocess lecture.

i feel da stress, i am worrying, though it is just da 1st few days of semester 2.

it is beyond words,

with no reasons,

i feel anxious.

i abhor this feeling.

i am still unadaptable.

but it is totally alright,

i keep telling myself.

because this is university life,

all I can do now is,

make myself fit,

to get used of these.

once getting used of these,

i am totally okay!!! :)