今天YINYUN生日。

下午和她去吃了海南鸡饭午餐，

然后HAAGAN DARZ 甜品。

晚上大家去吃扒！

哈哈

好开心

有一点过HIGH

不懂为什么

大家一起去来吃东西聊天

就很放松了

虽然大家都还有PAPER要考

但是就是很开心

呵呵

很庆幸在这里遇到他们，

来自同一个国家

虽然之前都互不相识

但是来到这个陌生的国家

大家感情就是很CLOSE，很亲切！

我相信

他们会是

我的大学生涯

重要的一部分

=）

加油，大家！

回家之路

越来越近！

好兴奋唷！

加油！！！

今天和妈妈谈天

眼泪又快要流出来了

不懂为什么

只要家人说一句关心的话

我就会忍不住了

妈妈说

食物很贵没关系

吃好一点

不要常常吃一样的东西

妈妈说

分数不高没关系

才第一次的大学考试

慢慢来，不要给自己压力

妈妈说

钱用太多没关系

不够的话就去户口按

十五千是给你用的

但是

我好想说

这里的东西再好吃

我还是喜欢家里的晚餐

成绩考不上

会让你们失望

不想本来那个学业不用你们担心的女儿

大学了还要你们操心

钱我省着用

十五千我留着

是希望下次你们来时

可以做你们的旅费

将近的四个月

迅速长大

打理生活

渐渐地驾轻就熟

今晚

又做一个

想家的小孩

sorry for da previous moody post,

was really not in great mood these few days,

not a reason to blame, i know.

chat with my family just now,

immediately lighten my heart and make me recharged, fully recharged!

da seemingly gloomy world is so wonderful now! =)

only they able to make me feel good, no matter how worse i feel before that.

and one more things,

my computer group presentation score is good.hehe.

32.5/40, very satisfied,

all hard work of my group-mates and I is paid off!

finally i do something correctly,

as all da previous work/revision make me feel like I am doing them aimlessly.

ok, that's all, no worries, I am ready to conquer, especially my coming oral presentation and calculus final term.

my beloved lecturer rush everything at last minutes and those are da things i have not learned before!

taylors series, maclaurin series, partial differentiation, ODE, elementary row operation of MATRIX, have a good date with me tonight and da coming days! i love you all very much, plz bear this in mind =)

i dont like being disturbed when i am concentrate doing my things,

but hell knows why i am with inconsiderate ppl.

chatting laughing like nobody business when you want to hit da slumber.

it is crucial period, fight for exam war and i need a good sleep/rest.

it may not important for you, but it is important in my perception.

ok, enough of complaining, jz mere complain, nothing more, human need space to release whenever they feel fed up.

and now, wanted to share some nice stuff =)

today is my last day of sem1.

without realizing my 1st sem in uni ends this fast.

and had a high tea with my classmates just now.

i feel fortunate to be faithed to know and mix around with them.

they are unlike da common HK teenagers who are materialistic/scheming.

why do I say so, cause there is another gang of my classmates who behave so.

thus i can really have a contrast comparison.

my group of classmates,

they might not know to dress up as well as da others,

they may not that outgoing as them,

and I, in fact not their very closest friends,

but at least, I can feel their sincerity, and I feel great about it.

I do not demand very much, I am glad to know them, work together with them.

thank you, and I comprehend everything happens for a reason.

I did Form6 unwillingly at da initial, but it ends great, no regret!

(plz, those who dont know about F6, plz dont simply comment about it, it is totally a different thing as secondary school)

I came HK with a reluctant heart, PolyU is not what I want.

things is still da same after I came here.

I do not like teaching method here, it is too chinese (or cantonese perhap), it is not a university study environment, it is not what I expect for a university, I thought I can improve my eng speaking skill in tertiary education as university students mostly communicate in eng, but here it is not.

I was depressed and frustrated about this once when I came here for not long, but da only thing I can do is accept it and try to get any opportunity to improve it.

most of my friends are in NUS/NTU,

until this moment, I am still thinking how would I be if I choose NUS?

I blame for my scholarship, it is da devil, it lure me here, without letting me to consider thoroughly,

but contradictory, it is da scholarship who sustain my life here.

ok, I am not blaming,

give me some time, to search out da great thing here, to make me feel worth coming here.

I had told myself, to only appreciate good things here, and never bring all da bad impact as the instinct of my life.

I cannot predict how it changes my mind at da end of my programme,

but one thing I can definitely tell myself that,

I can only have fruitful result unless I work damn hard and damn hard!

no matter in academic, daily stuff, relationship or spirit building-up.

go forward, work everything out, your home and parents and siblings and relatives and friends are all waiting for you!

ya, i miss them, again. =(

these few days strongly feel that i am surrounded by selfish people,

treating you without any responsibilities.

neglect feeling of people around his/her.

if it is da previous me,

i will feel very upset and pissed off.

but i keep telling myself,

stand, stay calm.

it is not worth for you to get angry/influence your mood.

i hope i can handle it well.

i do not want da emotional me to appear again.

all i aiming now is,

good GPA,

go back to my lovely home,

meet with people who worth for me to care.

HK is not lovely at all,

without my lovely ppl with me.

i will make it as lovely as i can.

at least, i will make my heart lovely.

心里很闷

有苦说不出

拿了GEN CHEM 试卷

分数不高

破了自己的记录

现在努力

来得及吗

GPA 达不到怎么办？

3.2/4.0 看似简单

拥有的能力

表现不到

家里的每一通电话

释放我的不开心

感动，流泪，谢谢

要努力

和自己说了无数次

但是就是

有心无力

很恨这样的自己

很恨

今晚

不想说话

只想静静的

呆在自己的世界

相爱想的事

做爱做的事

不想

硬挤个微笑

掩饰

好想

回家。

more that one month with no updates here.

life was busy last month with all midterms and essays and presentation.

want to write some post today,

unfortunately here is da only place for me to release, whenever i feel upset or uncertain.

so, eventually it ends up my blog posts are all about sad stuff..

got back my marketing essay and presentation results today.

a disappointed one. real disappointed, and depressed.

realize that, though you work hard and put a lot of effort on your studies,

university does not guarantee you a good results.

marketing essay is just above average,

not what i opt for.

this is da 1st work i put lots of effort and spend time on it,

but seems, all these is insufficient.

not to mention my presentation.

i handle question threw by my classmates well, they can understand my explanation.

i dun expect an A, but i hope to have a B+ at least.

but da reality tell me it is not.

B-, is this worse?

i have totally no idea.

cause i am da 1st group to present,

we dont know da standard of other groups.

we dont know how strict our tutor is.

from da expression of my teammates,

i saw disappointment, so am I.

numeral times of rehearsal, continuous correction,

it does not paid off.

i cannot explain,

i get teary very easily these days.

whenever i think of something,

i lost control.

my mum is in hospital.

2 tumors were diagnosed in her neck and she needs to went for an operation.

it is a minor operation, but no doubt i am still worry.

luckily she is fine now.

再难的事，也会有过的一天.

i told myself this, as i told my fren yesterday.

add oil.

everything will be fine.

keep da grin on face,

this is life. =)